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Sep 5, 2021Liked by Teodora Agarici

I am happy to have been a loner-observer type of kid. I looked at others and picked what i wanted and what not. My parents were not a great example and I'm glad they divorced, about 20 years too late but still! I had some relationships that the other person tried to mold me into something but as soon as i felt shacked, i ran without regrets. I have been hurt and probably hurt some but that might not always be intentional, life happens. I've never experienced the fear of being alone, i have my mind, my imagination, the world and books, but was always terrified of being with someone i didn't like as a human. In highschool I had flings as i didn't find boys my age interesting enough but didn't want to go on a older guy phase as I considered myself to be rather naive and always try to see the best in people; but new that the intentions were not always ok. My closest friends told me that i'll end up alone, that I'm too high-maintenance and that I will never find a guy to fit my ideals-we're only acquaintances now. I live my life by the idea of Carpe diem, i will daydream as i am a dreamer but i will never waste time chasing a guy, checking his socials or whatever crazy things some women do. If he wants to be with me, he will accept me as I am and I will do the same, growth happens as a couple but as individuals too. That guy came out of nowhere, what i wanted, what i needed and even more. Nearly 7 years into this road and i don't know his passwords, i never checked his phone or whatever and i never doubted his loyalty. But in my will i live everything to him and he to me. I've cried in front of him and he cried in front of me and not even once did we think less of eachother. We've had great moments and bad ones but through it all we were honest, we respect eachother, we communicate and we like the people we are. I have no fucking clue what life has in store for me, for us, but I am damn lucky to live this, then-now-tomorrow.

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Thanks for sharing, Sandra! That was really beautiful to read, and I hope your guy knows how lucky he is! :)

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Sep 6, 2021Liked by Teodora Agarici

We both know we are❤️

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An interesting idea for sure. I had a piece about this myself based on the show Why Women Kill. The show is an examination of just what you're talking about.

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Thanks, Andrew, for your comment! I read your post as well, and now I'm intrigued to watch the show!

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Awesome. That was actually my first attempt at a reply to someone else's post, and I have one in mind for a recent post of yours too.

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Sep 3, 2021Liked by Teodora Agarici

Oh wow that's was some strong symbolic stuff you pulled from that story. As for me I have only ever been in one serious relationship and she ended it with me. But umm I actually feel like I did lose my independence a bit in that relationship. Which I don't want to happen again if I ever get into anotherrelationship. Like I feel like I put so much into it that I forgot to put much into my self. Independence is so important in a relationship I know that now.

Woah Mr men is still going i had no idea god that blast in the childhood right there. Used to read them all the time as a kid haha 😄

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Thanks for sharing, Ben! It is a sensitive topic, but hopefully, my take on Natalia Ginzburg's novella has helped you reflect a bit on your past serious relationship, as well as future ones. I'm glad to know independence holds an important place in your heart – so it should be.

As for Mr Men, I am not sure how I came across the series since I don't recall being this popular in Romania (?) but once I did (in recent years), I started buying the books for any kid in my extended family! haha

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